I'm all out of words to write.
That is my excuse.

But I have a lot of ideas I am trying to coax out.
That is my mantra.



I also have a load of homework and I have to express creativity via plant arrangement (also known as landscaping or display). I have 3 more months or so before I am free, unless I am going to be challeneged by an employer to use my creative muscles. I would love a challenge.

Also, everything I didn't want to be, I am again, and because I am humbled by a hundred complex emotions tied into love, I have matured well. So, disregard anything you might have ever wondered if I had embarked on said missions. I am a better person now and I am purging previous memories and evidence of something I tried to be before.

I have 466 deviations and 341 messages....

Sorry that I haven't updated this particular gallery in so long.. been so freakin busy.

You'd think I'd have something to write about, especially since it's that time of year again.. but I'm too busy to even do the whole NaNoWriMo deal. maybe in 2 more years when I'm not bogged down by heavy obligations.

The story so far.. I failed last year's NaNoWriMo.. I gave up at about 8000 words because I knew nothing about my subject matter and I always stop and think, Aw crap, what am I writing anyway?

I had this epiphany in may that I needed to go to horticulture, so I moved out of my house, went to New Minas. Broke up with my boyfriend after a month or so.. in August I met ~Kuera and hung out with him for the month (suppose he's coming back this summer for good, yay!)

Then school started and I got super busy, now I'm too busy to draw or write, I'm usually too tired to even make myself fire up my laptop and write.. anyhow I've had lots in my head to put down for sharing but it's a matter of sitting down and getting back into that habit. Patience, I guess!

Does the ability to write go away with neglect.. or does it come back stronger after such a lapse?

The other me

so far, writing a novel isn't so difficult.

There's no pressure at the moment. I suppose once i get closer to the end of the month I'll be wanting to stab my eyeballs and break off my fingers.

and i'm actually keeping up with the 1,667 daily word quota.

might change tomorrow depending on the whole surgery thing. Painkillers might take it in a whole 'notha direction.

that is all, i guess. My useful advice today is: If you're going to dive into this, don't blow your baby on it, because you'll just bomb out (like I did last year).. yep. use an auxiliary BS rebound story. It reduces guilt. Chick lit guilt

I never did finish "daylily" but I created an ending. Which means I will be back on that eventually, if I feel inspired before november.

Nanowrimo anyone?

I'm going back to college in about a year, going to hack some annoying weeds off of me, and I'm going to move out soon i hope. You have no idea how excited I am to imagine myself using my own forks 'n knives, sit on my couch at night alone, and not hear a psychotic barking dog.

The most powerful sense associated with memory is smell, correct? I can still smell geranium leaves and oriental lilies, which is why I am going back to college and get my Horticulture degree. I'm going to grow memories.

I'm getting my wisdom teeth pulled on the 4th, and the idea that it was coming so soon scared me out of departing to mystical lands of expatriates.

I also purchased a laptop, so now I have no excuse to flee and write in dark corners of my home. I just can't find one dark enough. Where do you people find you write the best?

Nothing else is new, really. Just thought I'd let you all know that yes I am alive, even though my activity is severely weak. I have NO useful information today, and for that, I am sorry... I almost had a tradition going with those. Ah well.

[link] JOIN YOU SISSIES!

I'm almost finished.

Doing it a little at a time. It seems that my emotional stamina is quite low when it comes to writing. People are pushing me to put something out there for the public to see, something beyond DeviantART.

I have big ambitions.

~Hatzeh, I know you've been reading it. Tell me what you think.